Everything I believed has changed now,
I believed in people, and they changed faster than I expected. They turn their sentences around as if they were made of soft iron. Or maybe from a cloud's fur, the wind can shape them as it wants. Wind of looking for someone more useful than you.
I believed in love; it changes with needs. If you provide something, they will stay; otherwise, there are plenty of reasons why they shouldn't choose you.
I believed in fate, but after living 30 years of my life, I see nothing that I would have gotten if it were written in fate. And people say that you have to work for it? Didn't I do anything for it? Didn't I deserve it after giving my everything to life? I just want to become someone who is healthy enough to walk and talk. And fate ruined it for me. It feels like they have never written anything for me.
I believed in hope, but sometimes even hope doesn't work. It feels like another lie people have told you about. Because every time you look at something with hope, you lose it. As if hope was created to know about your desire and then take it away. For most of our lives, we have been hurt this way.
I believed in myself, and I've hurt myself so much that I don't want to believe in me. I don't want to play with my own feelings. I don't want to console my heart. Because every time something happens, I get hurt, and the reason is always me having a heart in my body. I couldn't stop it from being someone I'm from the core.
I believed in God...
I believed in people, and they changed faster than I expected. They turn their sentences around as if they were made of soft iron. Or maybe from a cloud's fur, the wind can shape them as it wants. Wind of looking for someone more useful than you.
I believed in love; it changes with needs. If you provide something, they will stay; otherwise, there are plenty of reasons why they shouldn't choose you.
I believed in fate, but after living 30 years of my life, I see nothing that I would have gotten if it were written in fate. And people say that you have to work for it? Didn't I do anything for it? Didn't I deserve it after giving my everything to life? I just want to become someone who is healthy enough to walk and talk. And fate ruined it for me. It feels like they have never written anything for me.
I believed in hope, but sometimes even hope doesn't work. It feels like another lie people have told you about. Because every time you look at something with hope, you lose it. As if hope was created to know about your desire and then take it away. For most of our lives, we have been hurt this way.
I believed in myself, and I've hurt myself so much that I don't want to believe in me. I don't want to play with my own feelings. I don't want to console my heart. Because every time something happens, I get hurt, and the reason is always me having a heart in my body. I couldn't stop it from being someone I'm from the core.
I believed in God...
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